HIM tribute poem

We walked through the Phantom Gate together.

Once we crossed we ripped out the wings of a butterfly.

Together we have seen the Face of God

as we were drunk on shadows and lost in a lie.

We have endured heartaches every moment

and we've been scared to death of those heartkillers

that are out there.

We have sung about The Sacrament being someone else,

when in reality

The Sacrament really is you.

We have taken serpent rides together

And then we were sleepwalking past hope

at the right time even though it felt wrong.

Just when my sadness felt like the beginning of the end,

your music forbode a sense of impending happiness.

Your beautiful songs felt like a resurrection of love and happiness that I have felt

in Joy and Sorrow.

After feeling that my heart had salt in its wounds,

hearing you say "I'm here for you" alleviated that pain.

You and I shared the same pain as love simply said no.

In the end, your beautiful music was the answer.

With that beautiful music,

you guys were there for me when no one else was.

You guys were there to kill my loneliness whenever I felt alone.

It was like having five friends there for me willing to help.

It was like saying "been there, done that." or

"I know how you feel, I understand." and were always happy to help.

To me and many others,

you guys are like spiritual friends,

lovers,

brothers,

a band of angels sent from heaven to earth.

All I wanted to say was...

Thank you for being the best band ever.

Thank you for being there for me when no one else was.

Thank you for your beautiful music

and your beautiful lyrics.

I love you guys so much.

Kiitos Paljon!

Heavy Metal Haiku (requested by my class)

Blood squirts all around,
As he pulls out the knife,
She dies a slow death.

Band plays fucking loud,
They all kick each other's ass,
People fly around.

Lovely green grass grows
It dominates the big yard,
grows all around it

Rain

Rain pours down on him
and soaks him all the way through
yet he enjoys it.

Crow

A black crow stands on
The cold and mushy white snow
Doesn’t fly away.

SCREW THOSE VEGGIES!!!

It's baby's feeding time,
Lunch time to be exact.
Already ate fruits,
Already ate cereal.

Mixed dinners are so heavy,
She cannot eat them yet.
It's very, very early
for chicken and rice.

I reach into the pantry
and what do I find?
Veggies, veggies, veggies!!!
She better eat them all.
If only she ate half,
I'd be so satisfied.

I grab a bib,
I grab a spoon,
I grab a jar,
a napkin too.

I feed her glorious veggies,
and what does she do?
She spits 'em out!
Her expression is priceless.
"Screw those veggies!!!"

Hallway of My Life

I walk in a hallway
inside my mind.
The hallway is long,
and filled with doors.
So, I open up the first door
and I go in…
I go inside a hospital room
I see a young woman
about twenty-three years old
Sleeping soundly.
And then I see a man
in his late forties or early fifties
go in after me.
They look familiar, yet,
I can’t figure out who they are.
I stand in front of him, but,
he does not notice me.
So, the young woman opens up her eyes,
The man smiles.
“You had a lovely little girl!” he says
with tears in his eyes.
I look out the window.
I see tanks, tents, and a desert.
I see a tall and skinny young man
in his twenties.
He wears a green uniform.
He is proud to serve his country.
He is later interrupted by a messenger.
“Son, you just had a daughter!”
I look back in the room
And there is a baby in her arms. (whose face I cannot see)
“Her name shall be…”
The name escapes me.
I felt a connection to that family
And I feel terrified.
I leave the room,
and run down the hallway,
I skip a few doors.
Childhood memories I suppose.
I then give up and open the next door.
I see a young bride whose face I cannot see.
She’s nervous and scared.
I walk inside the bridal room and see two children
Two children that don’t get along.
They stand by eachother and pose for a picture.
What a beautiful sight!
I look at the bride -not her face- and slap her.
She is already in tears and wails in pain.
“What the fuck are you doing bitch?
Do you realize why you’re here?
Do you know what will happen?
Run or face tears!!!” I yell.
She apparently does not understand me.
So, I decide to take her for a walk.
Just when I’m about to-
“Hello! Can we come in?”
Shit! Why is she here?
That bitch!
I fucking hate her.
Now I can’t steal the bride.
She poses for pictures, and
walks down the aisle.
I cry bitterly as I walk with her (in spirit)
I am in too much emotional pain, so,
I leave
to the hallway
and walk.
As I skip a few doors, I feel heavy,
frail,
tired,
in pain.
I open the door closest to me
to see if I can find rest.
I go inside a hospital,
And for some weird reason,
I smile.
I open one more door and
I see a young mother (whose face I cannot see)
I walk closer and
I see her holdng a newborn child.
It’s a girl.
She has (My husband?! WTF?) by her side,
and I also see a team of doctors,
and holy shit! My mother,
my aunts, and my grandmother?
What the fuck am I doing here?
What the fuck are they doing here?
I want to leave, but,
I am too happy to leave.
I see that baby’s face
and my heart beats with joy.
I faint, and wake up
and I am back in the hallway.
I get up and walk.
I open one more door.
I see a woman and her baby
Leave their tiny apartment.
She leaves her husband.
She’s in tears.
Her face clears up and-
That’s me!
All of these sights are now clear.
The baby, the bride, the mother, her…
I was them.
I walked back inside the hallway,
I will not open anymore doors.
I will remain inside this hallway.
The hallway of my life.

The Bitch

The Bitch:

She once had a bottle of whiskey,
And boy did it make her frisky
She got fucked up and down,
She screamed like a clown
And then she was being bitchy.

Lucifer

Lucifer

You brought light into my life
with your love.
Your angelic ways
have charmed me well.
I was pleased when you captured me.
I, a free woman, became
a slave.
Your slave.
Pain becomes pleasure,
Hate became love,
Darkness became light.
My happiness was your delight.
We were happy,
so in love,
and then you betrayed me.
You revealed your true self.
You were no angel of light,
you were an angel of darkness.
You charmed me with your demonic ways.
And now…
Light is darkness
Life is death
White is black
Pleasure is pain
Love is hate,
Freedom is captivity. (and always has been)
I loved you,
but you used me.
You took advantage of this love
this beautiful love I gave you.
A love so strong,
I swore it couldn’t be shattered.
But you did.
I gave you my heart
and you broke it.
I’m right here
picking up the pieces.
There are so many,
I’m overwhelmed.
I see you
right below me.
Smiling at my pain.
You had my heart,
You had my life,
My devotion,
My soul.
I just couldn’t escape your “love”
and now I pay the price
of being a fool.
Always and forever.

Life's Darkness and Hope's Light

Open up your eyes.
What do you see?
You see the sun set
and the moon rise.

The light dies
and the dark lives.
Bright stars
illuminate the skies.

In this sea of black high above us
reminiscent to life,
but, we are also reminded
of hope, an end to strife.

Darling,
what do you see now?
We kiss the moon goodbye
as the sun greets ‘Ciao!’

A sign of hope again
comes our way.
So now we realize
Tomorrow will be a better day.